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2007-10-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

TELL THE WORLD THAT JESUS LIVES!

SHIFTED > ehrah.blogspot.com

2007-09-26T08:47:00.000+08:00

hello! i'm shifting! (:

will let u guys know the weblink again in afew days time! whoohoo!

it's gonna be a blog shared with Sarah!

2007-08-30T08:32:00.000+08:00

it's like a sea always rising and never falling.
can you try and find a crack line while breaking a chopstick?
are words as meaningless as what you deem me to be?
i just wannagohome!

2007-08-10T13:36:00.000+08:00

Miracle Maker
I’m waiting here for my life to change,
When the waters stir you can rearrange me.
Just one touch is all I need,
I’ve nothing much but the wounds I feel,
I’m looking for the hand of the miracle man.

Holy, you are holy,
Who was and is and is to come.
Holy, you are holy, Saviour, Healer,
I’m standing at the feet of the miracle maker.

I’m holding on, with your life in mine,
Living water’s come,
And you’ve rearranged me.

Holy you are holy,
Who was and is and is to come.

Holy, you are holy,
Saviour,
healer,
I’m staring in the face of the miracle maker.

Holy,
you are holy,
Who was and is and is to come.
Jesus, precious Jesus,
Thank you, Saviour,
I’m walking in the shoes of my miracle maker.
I’m standing with the faith of a miracle maker.

2007-07-28T23:38:00.001+08:00

Sarah and i are combining blogs soon! keep a look out! :D

Just some of the pics we've been taking ;)

at faber!

How beautiful are your works O Lord my God!

while on the MRT!

at Esplanade! -"pose a EEk look el!"

We're currently working on our 2nd korean movie - summer sonata

Flying our kite at marina!

literally spending my 18 birthday with the monkeys and the lions, not forgetting zebras too!

Ahh, just about a year ago..

2007-07-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

dear God, only You know.
at times like these when Joel feels so small and weak

2007-07-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

I WAS MADE TO PRAISE YOU
Chris Christensen

I WAS MADE TO PRAISE YOU
I WAS MADE TO GLORIFY YOUR NAME
IN EVERY CIRCUMSTANCE
TO FIND A CHANCE TO THANK YOU
I WAS MADE TO LOVE YOU
I WAS MADE TO WORSHIP AT YOUR FEET
AND TO OBEY YOU, LORD
I WAS MADE FOR YOU

I WILL ALWAYS PRAISE YOU
I WILL ALWAYS GLORIFY YOUR NAME
IN EVERY CIRCUMSTANCE
I’LL FIND A CHANCE TO THANK YOU
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I WILL ALWAYS WORSHIP AT YOUR FEET
AND I’LL OBEY YOU, LORD
I WAS MADE FOR YOU

i was made for You dear Lord

be back blogging again soon! promise i'll catch up what was lost!

2007-06-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

Praise You in the Storm -Casting Crowns

I was sure by now,
God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again my strength is almost gone
how can I carry on if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God
who gives and takes away

I barely hear You whisper through the rain "I'm with you"

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away

2007-06-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain
He will do something new today.

dear God, i need something new EVERYDAY. and i cant do it all alone. Thank God for a God who's there who loves and cares and helps in ways we can and cannot see :)

2007-06-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

church camp from 12-16 June. woohoo!
gonna miss you all!

2007-06-07T18:40:00.000+08:00

dear God. i feel like quiting.

but thank God the bible didn't say 'quit if you have to'
persevere on Joel!

2007-06-07T13:48:00.001+08:00

Goooooooooooooooooood.
i wanna finish this stupid common test quickly.
i feel like i'm going through a super
slooooooooooooooooooooooooow
death. graahhh.
where everything's like
slooooooooooooooooooooooooow motion.
so many papers to take.

2007-06-06T21:14:00.000+08:00

Devotion
Hillsong United

I've been running, trying to be one who sees
I've been working, salvation out on my knees
There is nothing better than knowing
That we are redeemed
Unbelieving trusting in creative hands,
I am praying for our world to bow to your plan
And this one thought is unmistakable
I take up my cross and follow you Lord

When you stand the tall trees and mountains bow
When you speak the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen, and I fall to my knees

Unforgiven, my savior who did not deserve death
He was blameless and I was lost in shamefulness
Undelivered, but it doesn't seem right
Unless I keep my eyes focused on the savior who gave his live
In the middle of a world that denies it believes
It is breaking apart at the very seams
There is one thing to be alive for
And it's to take up my cross and follow you Lord

I will take up my cross
and follow Lord where you lead me
And I will take up my cross
and follow wherever you go

dear Lord, i fall to my knees again and again
living but not of this world
made to be holy priests

"2In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you.

3And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.

4You know the way to the place where I am going." -John 14

2007-06-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

From today's QT

Psalm 119:

9 How can a young man keep his way pure?
By living according to your word.

10 I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.

2007-06-05T17:44:00.000+08:00

A world has opened for us
A world that's bright and gay
A world that's full of interest
Since to school we found our way
It's a world that's full of gladness
And we're happy all the day
And we learn that only busy folks
Can be bright and true and gay

It's at Fairfield, at Fairfield
Where all the world is bright
Where love is in the sunshine
And our hearts are gay and light

Oh! It's Fairfield, at Fairfield
Where all the world is bright
Where love is in the sunshine
And our hearts are gay and light

There we live and work and study
There we walk in wisdom's ways
Gaining strength for all the future
Far and near we'll sing thy praise
May blessings be upon thee
May many find thy halls
May the leaders of the future
Be found within thy walls

Here's to Fairfield, to Fairfield
To every student here
To every happy fairsian
And to every teacher dear
Oh! It's Fairfield, at Fairfield
Where all the world is bright
Where love is in the sunshine
And all the world is bright.

mann, fairfield's school song. stupid kelly lim lah. came and talked to me abt fairfield days. ahhh. i miss everyone there. really. where love is in the sunshine. and all the world is bright. i miss u fairfield days!

today while studying,
God: $$$ or Me?
Joel: ...
...
..
.
ahh. i surrender Lord

Surrender
I'm giving You my heart
and all that is within
I lay it all down
for the sake of You my King
I'm giving You my dreams
I'm laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride
for the promise of new life

I surrender all to You
All to You
I surrender all to You
All to You

I'm singing You this song
I'm waiting at the cross
And all the world holds dear
I count it all as loss
For the sake of knowing You
for the glory of Your name
To know the lasting joy
even sharing in Your pain

Marc James© 2000 Vineyard Songs (UK/Eire)
Administered in North America by Music Services o/b/o Vineyard Music Global, Inc./PRS

in humility i come before you O God
for You hold my whole world

2007-06-04T20:12:00.000+08:00

found something quite interesting while i was at ihope 2 saturdays ago. here's a 5:1 ratio this dude came up with.

Gottman discovered that all
three styles of marriage are stable as
long as there is a 5-1 ratio of positive to negative interactions
in the relationship. When the 5-1 ratio of positive to
negative tilts toward the negative, usually one of the “Four
Horsemen” is present; Criticism, Contempt,
Defensiveness, and Stonewalling.

Gottman notes that it is not conflict itself that is the problem,
but how we handle it.
Venting anger constructively can actually do wonders to clear the air
and get a relationship back in balance.

1. Criticism. Criticism involves attacking your partner’s personality or character, rather than focusing on the specific behavior that bothers you. It is healthy to air disagreements, but not to attack your spouse’s personality or character in the process. This is the difference between saying, “I’m upset that you didn’t take out the trash” and saying, “I can’t believe you didn’t take out the trash. You’re just so irresponsible.” In general, women are more likely to pull this horseman into conflict.

2. Contempt. Contempt is one step up from criticism and involves tearing down or being insulting toward your partner. Contempt is an open sign of disrespect. Examples of contempt include: putting down your spouse, rolling your eyes or sneering, or tearing down the other person with so-called “humor.”

3. Defensiveness. Adopting a defensive stance in the middle of conflict may be a natural response, but does not help the relationship. When a person is defensive, he or she often experiences a great deal of tension and has difficulty tuning into what is being said. Denying responsibility, making excuses, or meeting one complaint with another are all examples of defensiveness.

4. Stonewalling. People who stonewall simply refuse to respond. Occasional stonewalling can be healthy, but as a typical way of interacting, stonewalling during conflict can be destructive to the marriage. When you stonewall on a regular basis, you are pulling yourself out of the marriage, rather than working out your problems. Men tend to engage in stonewalling much more often than women do.

Some things we can all do:
1. Nurture your friendship. Do you know your spouse’s likes and dislikes, dreams, worries, fears and hopes? Do you know in detail what your spouse did all day yesterday? Do you know what types of pressures he or she faces at work? The basis of a good marriage is a solid friendship. If a marriage is not built on a strong friendship, it may be difficult to stay connected over time. Make sure you take some time each day to confide in one another. During these times, make it a priority to listen and learn about your partner’s thoughts, feelings, and ideas.

2. Actively take steps to foster your liking and admiration for your partner. Gottman says this is the antidote to contempt. Remember your partner's good qualities. Why were you attracted to your spouse in the first place? What did you originally love or admire about your partner? By nurturing your fondness for your spouse, you can foster a much more positive attitude toward him or her.

3. Always behave respectfully toward your spouse. In relationships that deteriorate over time, respect becomes increasingly absent. Sadly, sometimes people end up treating their spouses worse than they would ever treat a complete stranger. By tolerating or engaging in disrespectful behavior, you actively contribute to the demise of your relationship. Do you ever call your spouse names? Do you ever berate your partner in front of your friends or family? Do you consider how your spouse will be affected by your cruel comments or actions? Take stock of ways you or your spouse may cross the line of respect. Remember that without respect, love cannot survive.

4. Accept and validate your partner. Recognize how much power you have to build up your spouse up or tear him or her down. You can help make your relationship a safe haven or hell on earth (HAHA! i remembered skai talking about one last sunday). Remember, everyone needs to feel accepted for who they are as a human being. Instead of attacking your spouse, try to understand his or her point of view. Also, compliment your spouse for ways he or she supports you and your relationship. It’s easy to get so focused on what is wrong in a relationship that you miss what is actually working.

5. Forgive one another. When your partner genuinely reaches out to ask for forgiveness, do not turn away. Hurt feelings and conflict are inevitable at times. When attempts to repair this hurt are repeatedly rejected, the relationship takes a hit. You may need time to let go of a grudge, bitterness, or feelings of hurt, but don’t close the door completely on your partner’s attempts to make things better. Reach deep inside and work on healing together.

6. Calm down. When conflict escalates, people can become “flooded” by strong emotions, leading to physical distress, stonewalling and defensiveness. Take a few deep breaths or call a time out. Most people need about 20 minutes to actually calm their bodies down. Take the time and come back to the issues at hand when you can actually listen to what the other person is saying without being overwhelmed.

7. Let your partner influence you. In general, men are less likely to look for common ground with their wives. Gottman notes "When a man is not willing to share power with his partner, there is an 81% chance that his marriage will self-destruct.” Remember that good marriages involve give and take. You are on the same team and need to work together for the sake of your relationship.

8. Warm up your relationship. Keep your relationship healthy by ensuring that there are at least five positive interactions for every negative one. Gottman’s research has identified that a 5:1 ratio of positive interactions to negative ones is linked to the stability of a marriage, no matter what your typical style of resolving conflict. If there is too much negativity, the relationship suffers.

9. Learn to let some things go. Although your spouse may do things that drive you crazy, remember you can cope. It is not worth it to struggle over every little thing. Solve the problems that are solvable and let the others go. You must learn to pick your battles carefully.

10. Don’t forget to work on yourself. A relationship is just like a dance (whee!). You move in unison to create something that is truly unique. What type of partner are you? Do you work with your partner or pull hard in another direction? Do you step on her toes? Do you gaze in his eyes or focus only on your next steps? Remember you control 50% of what happens in your relationship. Be sure you are a good partner.

just some mini- research i've done. alrights, better quote my source: http://www.1stholistic.com/reading/health/health-marriage-and-health.htm

sorry for my irregular posts! i'll try and post more often k?
(:

2007-06-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

dear God, forgive me for the times i make this poor girl sad

i'm sorry for the times i fail

i thank you once again for this blessing in my life

help me cherish, protect and love her

to bring her smiles, to be there when she cries

to know that we're secure in your plans

and for all the fears and all the cares

we place them all in your hands

dear God, help me to learn to love dear sarah

more and more each day with your strength

to know that we're nothing without You, God

please teach us and guide us

and to glorify you in everything we do

when two are better than one (:

2007-06-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

aiyah. i dunno man God -

2007-06-01T18:47:00.000+08:00

13 Now all has been heard;
here is the conclusion of the matter:
Fear God and keep his commandments,
for this is the whole duty of man.

14 For God will bring every deed into judgment,
including every hidden thing,
whether it is good or evil.
-Ecclesiastes 12

What’s the point of a life that goes so fast and ends so quickly?
It’s a question asked by one of the wisest men who ever lived.
In his later years, Solomon, the third king of Israel, wandered from God.
He became spiritually disoriented and lost his sense of direction and purpose.
He looked at all of his accomplishments and found them worthless.
Until he remembered his God (12:13-14),
he forgot that we live not merely for ourselves
but for the honor of the One who made us to worship and enjoy Him forever.
Significance is not found in the number of our days,
but in what our eternal God says about how we have used them.
—Mart De Haan

How TRUE! begining to realise all of this.
Thank You Lord for renewal of scholarship! :D
yay!

2007-05-31T20:13:00.000+08:00

19 "God is not a man, that he should lie,
nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill? "

-Numbers 23

Promises of God! (:

2007-05-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

i found this link on sarah's blog which took me to this page full of questions and answers. here's one of the answers! its kinda long, but worth reading :)

"Walking by our feelings is like walking through the world with our heart on our sleeve.
We are bound to be hurt and we are bound to be disappointed for we live in a fallen world. What we choose to do with that hurt and disappointment will either allow us to grow stronger in our walk with the LORD or it will mean that we are walking wounded.
Both outcomes are our choice.
God makes it possible for us to walk through the disappointments in life with a knowledge that His provision for us works.
His grace and His comfort are ours as we rest in it.
Every born again child of God has all of these provisions and blessings in Christ but we have to choose to use them.
It is sort of like having a million dollars in the bank and choosing to starve to death because we don't use that money.
It is also true that "we cannot use what we do not know."
Therefore, it behooves every believer to "know" something and that means more than devotional reading of God Word but study that changes our perspective (2 Timothy 2:15) and allows us to face day to day life armed with real understanding about the reality of walking by faith.

Therefore, if you are a child of God, you may suffer disappointment in this life, but you need to remember that as a child of the King, this rejection is a momentary bump in the road.
You have a choice to either allow that bump to derail you and walk wounded or you can choose to claim the heritage of a child of God and move forward in grace.
Forgiveness of others and of self is a gift that you can give because of the grace gift of our LORD Jesus Christ (Ephesians 4:32)."

2007-05-15T21:16:00.000+08:00

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Please come back home

dear God, where's Joel?

2007-05-14T08:14:00.001+08:00

Beautiful One

Wonderful so wonderful is Your unfailing love
Your cross has spoken mercy over me
No eye has seen no ear has heard
No heart could fully know
How glorious how beautiful You are
Beautiful One I love You
Beautiful One I adore
Beautiful One my soul must sing

Powerful, so powerful Your glory fills the skies
Your mighty works displayed for all to see
The beauty of Your majesty awakes my heart to sing
How marvelous how wonderful You are

You opened my eyes to Your wonders anew
You captured my heart with this love
Because nothing on earth is an beautiful as You
My soul my soul must sing
My soul my soul must sing
My soul my soul must sing
Beautiful One

AHHH. in love, in love, in love with my savior Jesus. so grateful i am for You.
Sarah! i can't post pictures on my blog anymore! please help! something's wrong with my blogger!

2007-05-14T08:14:00.000+08:00

2007-05-08T18:00:00.000+08:00

there's something wrong with blogger. anw.

Psalms 139:

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

...

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

...

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

2007-05-08T17:54:00.000+08:00

-from Our Daily Bread 17 Feb 2003-

In his book Laugh Again, Charles Swindoll suggests three common "joy stealers"—worry, stress, and fear. He defines worry as "an inordinate anxiety about something that may or may not occur." (And it usually doesn't.) Stress, says the author, is "intense strain over a situation we can't change or control." (But God can.) And fear, according to Swindoll, is a "dreadful uneasiness over danger, evil, or pain." (And it magnifies our problems.)

-and also from Our Daily Bread (January 11, 2007)-

Ten Rules for Happier Living:
1. Give something away.
2. Do a kindness.
3. Give thanks always.
4. Work with vim and vigor.
5. Visit the elderly and learn from their experience.
6. Look intently into the face of a baby and marvel.
7. Laugh often—it’s life’s lubricant.
8. Pray to know God’s way.
9. Plan as though you will live forever—you will.
10. Live as though today is your last day on earth.

2007-05-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

God: Joel?

Joel: Yes Lord?

2007-05-07T11:11:00.000+08:00

joel has been riding the waves the past few weeks.

from slipping on the floor, hurting my back,
to having some bleeding here and there
to breaking the CD-ROM drive of my laptop
to buying a wrong headphones which are supposed to b used on TVs instead of MP3s
to leading worships after worships
to feeling fat and unfit while kicking football
to lagging behind in almost every module u can name
to having my shortest haircut in a long time
to hurting my wrist, my ankle - blue blacks here and there
to arranging for DG
to managing every little bit of LM details
to not having my usual QTs
to feeling high and low in a couple of seconds
to breaking my acoustic guitar string
to having a messed up table
to getting my first C+ for lab

dear God, i just miss the carefree days as i look at pictures. but then again:
"give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."- 1 Thessalonians 5:18

-sarah! i miss u! and our swing rides! and our changi flying aeroplanes through the windy clouds.

Amen.
persevere on everybody! :)
geek mode : ON

2007-04-29T08:02:00.001+08:00

The Time is Now :)
To stand for all we believe in.

2007-04-25T17:29:00.001+08:00

dear God, i really don't wanna screw up this life :(

2007-04-23T09:03:00.000+08:00

Though we may not choose our circumstances, we do choose whether to trust God (2 Cor. 1:9). Through the fellowship of the Son and the enablement of the Spirit, we can carry out our mission for God (1 Cor. 1:9; John 16:13). April 22, 2007 - Our Daily Bread

i was just thinking yesterday night while on my bed, can i really do it? this workload is really gonna be heavy, when do i give up everything? i really dunno. all i know is that God really wants to speak to me again when i can quieten my heart to listen for His voice.

2007-04-20T19:47:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU LORD. my heart's just full of gratitude, joy and thanks to my God.

had icecream with sarah today. just enjoyed the silly conversations we always have. i thank God for you again and again and again and again! i don't have our photos of the icecream trip there. but u should see how sarah eats her icecream. i think i always want to thank God for times like these when we can laugh our hearts out, just be ourselves and have our stomach filled with yummy food :) i thank God i have someone to lean on when i'm not strong, someone who makes my day with meaningful bible verses, slaps and messes up my hair even when i don't have good hair, someone who i can always trust and love. sweetest person i know!

so so so much more to thank God.

1. For God's love!

2. my script's done for pre-u seminar!

3. good lecturers this sem - wonderful classmates. when everyone had to change class, my class was one of the only 2 classes which stood together.

4. for an opportunity to join computer alpha - robotics! whoohoo! no more power ranger zoids

5. for my caring and supportive family! for encouraging and loving me.

6. for 3rd position in ECE! GPA 4.0, top ECPRO :):):) not boasting here. pls. thanksgiving.

7. prison break season 2 - life would be quite boring without exciting shows

8. worship practice tmr! - finally we're worshiping God with our musical instruments again!

9. for everyone in GenHope! -past & present. u dunno how much i pray for you all.

10. safety, love, peace, meritocracy in Singapore.

11. Crusaders! -Hell lot of work to do, but i thank God for everyone of you who makes my life worth living. hahaha.

12. Last, but probably my most important thanksgiving - Sarah Mok Yun Zhen! wonderful girlfriend God's blessed me with :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

Are you looking for God? search no more, contact Joel

2007-04-17T14:14:00.000+08:00

John 10:14
14"I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me— 15just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep. 16I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. 17The reason my Father loves me is that I lay down my life—only to take it up again. 18No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command I received from my Father."

Teeheeheeh. i'm supposed to be having FOOP (Fundamentals of Object-Oriented Programming) lessons now. but i got super bored and that's why i'm here. i was suddenly lead to do my QT during lesson, and found some really good stuff from today's QT:

Near the village of Gevas in eastern Turkey, while shepherds ate their breakfast, one of their sheep jumped off a 45-foot cliff to its death.
Then, as the stunned shepherds looked on, the rest of the flock followed.
In all, 1,500 sheep mindlessly stumbled off the cliff.
The only good news was that the last 1,000 were cushioned in their fall by the growing woolly pile of those who jumped first.
According to The Washington Post, 450 sheep died.

The Bible often refers to human beings as sheep (Ps. 100:3; Isa. 53:6; Matt. 9:36). Easily distracted and susceptible to group influence, we would rather follow the crowd than the wisdom of the Shepherd.

I’m glad the Bible also describes sheep in a positive way. Jesus said, “I am the Good Shepherd . . . . My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me” (John 10:14,27).

So the big question for us is: Whom are we following? One another? Self-centered shepherds? Or the voice and direction of the Good Shepherd?
Our challenge is to avoid the mistake of the sheep who blindly followed one another over a cliff. We must make it our daily purpose to ask ourselves: Am I listening for the voice of the Good Shepherd? Am I following Him?

AHH dear God. lead me back to your embrace once again. Please help me finish my script fast. QUICK. i want it off my head.

2007-04-16T08:49:00.000+08:00

" 'Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
10your kingdom come,
your will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
11Give us today our daily bread.
12Forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.'

14For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

-Matt 6

Dear God, teach me to forgive others out there. Teach me to love those who have just not done right. Father, whatever that has been done, I pray that God, You'll be the judge. help me to forgive.

1If I speak in the tonguesof men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
9For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

-1 Corin13

29If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic.
30Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back.
31Do to others as you would have them do to you.

32"If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' love those who love them.
33And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' do that.
34And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' lend to 'sinners,' expecting to be repaid in full.
35But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked.
36Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.

-Luke 6

God really spoke to me through these verses as i woke up this morning. When i found it so hard to love someone whom i felt was really wrong, i know in my heart God wants me to love that person. no matter how great the fault is, i'm equally a sinner like. Thank You God for your love, Jesus on the cross for all our sins :)

2007-04-14T19:26:00.000+08:00

A man after Your own heart
O God, Father in heaven and earth
I call to You like deep calls to deep over water
Show me Your endless measure of grace
Let tender mercies shine once again
From Your holy face
Deep in my soul there's a craving
To please the One who has saved me

O God, though I have fallen so far
You know that I'm still
A man after Your own heart

I am driven by rivers of pride
You are my rescue
The Maker and Keeper of my life
Lead me by the still waters again
Use me in spite of the prodigal child
That You know I am

Just as a deer runs to water
So does my soul to You, Father
O God, though I have wandered so far
You know that I'm still
A man after Your own heart
I'm still a man after Your own heart

The song below was sung during worship today which really brought me to my knees again. i think many times we take God for granted. When things are bad, we go begging on our knees, when trouble times are over, we hardly communicate with God anymore. I'm just very grateful to God for saving me even when i'm not worthy. i was really comforted when i came across this verse:

Psalm 25

"11 For the sake of your name, O LORD, forgive my iniquity, though it is great.

12 Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ? He will instruct him in the way chosen for him. "

What a friend we have in Jesus,
all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,
all because we do not carry
everything to God in prayer.

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful
who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness;
take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden,
cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In his arms he'll take and shield thee;
thou wilt find a solace there.

Dear God, when i know i'm not perfect. i know your love will see me through.
I'm sorry for all the wrong things i've done and hurt you, and the people around me.
Take it to the Lord in prayer

2007-04-12T10:58:00.000+08:00

I stand amazed in the presence
Of Jesus the Nazarene,
And wonder how He could love me,
A sinner, condemned, unclean.

O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
And my song shall ever be
O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
Is my Savior’s love for me!

For me it was in the garden
He prayed: “Not My will, but Thine.”
He had no tears for His own griefs,
But sweat drops of blood for mine.

O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
And my song shall ever be
O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
Is my Savior’s love for me!

In pity angels beheld Him,
And came from the world of light
To comfort Him in the sorrows
He bore for my soul that night.

O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
And my song shall ever be
O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
Is my Savior’s love for me!

He took my sins and my sorrows,
He made them His very own;
He bore the burden to Calvary,
And suffered and died alone.

O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
And my song shall ever be
O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
Is my Savior’s love for me!

When with the ransomed in glory
His face I at last shall see,
’Twill be my joy through the ages
To sing of His love for me.

O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
And my song shall ever be
O how marvelous!
O how wonderful!
Is my Savior’s love for me!

Thank You Jesus for paying for my sins. Thank You for loving me (:

Phantom of the Opera @ Esplanade! 10 April 2007
The lights, sound, cast and everyone there was splendid.
Can't actually remember when was the last time i watched a musical.
What a blessing!

2007-04-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

2 Corinthians 11:25

"Three times I was beaten with rods, once I was stoned, three times I was shipwrecked, I spent a night and a day in the open sea.. I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked. Besides everything else, I face daily the pressure of my concern for all the churches. Who is weak, and I do not feel weak?... "

I learn in this lesson from Paul while playing this bible quiz yesteryday during Youth Meeting. We were divided into 2 groups and Skai asked questions from this pack of cards. the question was "How many times was Paul shipwrecked ? 1, 3, 5, 10? "

See, Paul, even while on his mission in life from God suffered so much just to bring the gospel to Asia and the different parts of the world. Any normal person would have thought of giving up, thinking that this kind of life is too difficult. I think doing God's will is never easy, it's a life time commitment which takes lots of perserverence. This is how sometimes i feel, tired, beaten (not literally), but rejected and restricted. Sometimes we can't do anything about what's happening, we can't forsee what's coming and God just let certain things happen His way. well, one thing's for sure : fixing my eyes on Jesus.

2007-04-05T08:31:00.000+08:00

"who wants all men to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the truth. "
1 Timothy 2:4

"I want men everywhere to lift up holy hands in prayer, without anger or disputing"
1 Timothy 2:8

"For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come."
1 Timothy 4:8

2007-04-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

dear God, thanku for seeing me through those 2 weeks.
though i'm insecure, imperfect and scared many times.
I thank you for your wonderful blessings, love and grace.
and especially for the very special person u brought to my life.
i thank u once again for Sarah.

2007-04-04T12:04:00.000+08:00

He Reigns
the song of the redeemed rising from the African plain
It’s the song of the forgiven drowning out the Amazon rain
The song of Asian believers filled with God’s holy fire
It's every tribe, every tongue every nation.
A love song born of a grateful choir

It’s all God’s children singing
Glory, glory! Hallelujah!
He reigns!
He reigns!

Let it rise above the four winds,
Caught up in the heavenly sound
Let praises echo from the towers of cathedrals
To the faithful gathered underground
Of all the songs sung from the dawn of creation,
Some were meant to persist
Of all the bells rung from a thousand steeples,
None rings truer than this

And all the powers of darkness
Tremble at what they’ve just heard
Cause all the powers of darkness can’t drown out a single word

When all God’s children sing out
Glory, glory! Hallelujah!
He reigns! He reigns!
All God’s children sing out
Glory, glory! Hallelujah!
He reigns! He reigns!
All God’s people singing Glory, glory!
Hallelujah! He reigns! He reigns!

O we praise You Lord Jesus, this is what i live for.

2007-03-20T20:25:00.000+08:00

AHH. i can't tell u how much i miss her. Saaaarraaaaahmokyunzhen.
been super busy with work, but God's been good, speaking through soft whispers in the heart.

i need a break.

2007-03-14T07:24:00.000+08:00

*faints. can't believe how much God has blessed me this sem.

Ngee Ann Polytechnic STATEMENT OF EXAMINATION RESULTS
NAME : LOKE LIANG EN JOEL
STUDENT NO: 10036379H
COURSE : ELECTRONIC & COMPUTER ENG
NRIC / FIN : ********
CURRENT SEMESTER CREDIT UNITS OBTAINED : 27.0000
DATE OF EXAMINATION : FEB 2007
CURRENT SEMESTER GRADE POINT AVERAGE : 4.0000
SEMESTER OF STUDY: 02

CREDIT MODULE UNIT GRADE
ANALOGUE ELECTRONICS 5.00 AD
COMPUTER PROGRAMMING 4.00 AD
CREATIVITY AND APPLIED THINKING SKILLS 2.00 AD
ELE & ELECT PRACTICAL SKILLS 5.00 A
ELECTRICAL & ELECTRONICS DRAWINGS & CAD 3.00 AD ENGINEERING : A CREATIVE PROFESSION 2.00 AD
ENGINEERING MATHEMATICS 3A 4.00 A+
SPORTS AND WELLNESS 2.00 PX
RESULT: Passed

THANKU LORD!

2007-03-08T20:06:00.000+08:00

"If Everyone Cared" -Nickelback

From underneath the trees,
we watch the sky
Confusing stars
for satellites
I never dreamed
that you'd be mine
But here we are,
we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing
Amen I, Amen I,
I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I,
Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air
the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world
they were wrong
And teach them all
to sing along

Singing Amen, I,
I'm alive
Singing Amen, I,
I'm alive(I'm alive)

And as we lie
beneath the stars
We realize
how small we are
If they could love
like you and me
Imagine what
the world could be

If everyone cared
and nobody cried
If everyone loved
and nobody lied
If everyone shared
and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day
when nobody died
When nobody died...

We'd see the day,
we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day,
we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day
when nobody died

cool song, nickelback. first time i hear a word of amen in a secular song.

2007-03-07T18:34:00.000+08:00

This time what I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I've seen it all and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone

This time what I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place

I've seen enough and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

my sister screwed up my computer! :(

i've got nothing left to say.
been really tired of going in circles.
good enough not.
when can I be gone?
just take me away.
dissolve me into nothingness.
when i feel i'm not ready for this life.

swing me around in laghters!

2007-03-05T19:56:00.000+08:00

thank you Lord! found a job at last :)) answered prayer. amazing.
praying for you all out there! there's hope in Jesus!

2007-03-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

(click on it for larger view)
this is something sirong once taught me, managing my workload, pausing and just seeing where i'm heading. the person in the white ball represents me, in a sea. the balloons hanging ontop are holding me up from drowning, while the balloons below are sinking me.

i can identify when someone told me about being taken for granted. sometimes, you feel like being so obedient to everybody, that you end up taking on so many things such that at the end of the day, none of them are really what you enjoy doing. i need a bigger picture to life. i'm not going in circles anymore.

left turn, right turn, dear God, which turn now?

2007-02-27T20:21:00.000+08:00

oh my! just realised what i've been missing out on myspace.
sarah! i need help with HTML soon! :)

2007-02-27T20:07:00.000+08:00

my mission this holidays:

L O V E

agape love, convicted of it. here's why,

Luke 10:27 (New International Version)
27He answered: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'"

Nobody knows, how weak I am
Better than You
Nobody sees, all of my needs
Better than You
And nobody has, the power to change me
To what I was born to be
Jesus be strong, in my weakness
Empower me

Empower me
Like a rushing river flowing to the sea
Lord, send your Holy Spirit
Flowing out through me
Till I'm living as Your child
Victorious and free
Send the power of Your love
Empower me

Nobody's eyes, see through my soul
Better than Yours
Nobody's love, can make me whole
No love but Yours
And nobody has, the power to lift me
To reach for eternity
Jesus break through all my defenses
Empower me

2007-02-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

Jesus Jesus
Holy One, God's precious Son
You gave

Jesus Jesus
On the cross You took my shame
Forever from my heart I'll say
I live to worship You, Lord
My King of glory
Brought me to life
Gave me wings to fly
You are holy
Heaven and earth declare Your praise
Both now and evermore
I glorify Your name

Jesus Jesus
On the cross You took my sin
Forever from my heart I'll sing
You are holy
Glorify Your name
Jesus Jesus Jesus
I glorify Your name

a really old hillsong! was so happy when i found lyrics and chords to it! :)) the feeling's like finding a really old treasured photo! *sigh. then again, who would think how hillsong would have evolved to be so much so like a punk rock christian band now, i really miss the worship songs they used to write. somehow, it's different when we worship now with their newly written songs, it's not impossible, just harder.

I glorify Your name

2007-02-18T21:22:00.000+08:00

happy CNY! whoohoots! think ang pow again? not this time for me, my first year in the poly going through CNY hasn't been as exciting as what it has been in previous years. i'm more interested in eating the cookies now, growing fatter! year of pig! let's all grow fatter! :D

haha. i realised everything which needs to be posted have been up on sarah's blog, u can go click on her blog from my links and find everything there :) not a good blogger as compared to her. so i thought, heh, why not put up the shots she DIDN'T post on her blog :P

cheese!

my superwoman! she'll eat you up! :D roar!

whoo!

thank you for all your support, your love, your encouragements, your prayers, your care and concern. thank you for understanding me, sacrificing and going through the storms with me. we only have more to thank God for as we journey this live together :)

Mighty To Save

Everyone needs compassion

Love that's never failing

Let mercy fall on me

Everyone needs forgiveness

The kindness of a Saviour

The hope of nations

Saviour

He can move the mountains

My God is mighty to save

He is mighty to save

Forever

Author of salvation

He rose and conquered the grave

Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me

All my fears and failures

Fill my life again

I give my life to follow

Everything I believe in

Now I surrender

Shine Your light

and let the whole world see

We're singing

For the glory of the risen King

Jesus, Shine Your light

and let the whole world see

We're singing

for the glory of the risen King

dear God, we need You, O we need thee

Every hour we need thee.

2007-02-15T20:18:00.000+08:00

not that i was busy or anything, but i refused to blog since i err. can't remember when. i've come to a point where i'm frustrated at everything and anything. i can't seem to understand the whole point of what i'm doing these days. somehow, the purpose of reaching somewhere has lost it's meaning, and sooner or latter, i think i'm just gonna explode.

it's hard to put aside those emotions and anger to forgive when i'm supposed to. especially when i feel like i've been taken for granted these days. it just seem like everyone has an inner motive for needing me. sometimes, i just feel so lost at where my focus has been.

sometimes, i don't know if i'm really hard to teach or is God just trying to teach me this lesson on forgiveness, cause whichever the reason is, it's been hard to move on in life with this issues sticking onto you. every now and then i reach a limit, i explode into tears, and they just keep going on. you know you get that kind of feeling once in a while that you're not good enough for people anymore? you start shunning away from them, lock yourself from the outside world, speak less, be less involved and hope that things will change, but you obviously know they wouldn't?

Giving in has been something i didn't like since young. when mag came out from mummy's wombs, every older sibling had that feeling of jealousy. i had mine too, but thank God i learnt fast, giving in to her, understanding her feelings, and just loving her. mag has played such an important part in my life every since. truely thank God for her :) but can you see what i mean? though i was taught to give in to her, i never understood what a command it was to love her until years latter when i naturally loved my one and only sister. you just cannot force me to doing something or learning it, and worst, scolding me when i keep making the same mistake. some things in life has to come from the heart, with emotive expressions, through love and failure. sometimes, i don't know if you're killing more of me than teaching me the discipline i need.

thank God for people like church mates, school frens, crusaders, magdalene and of cuz sarah dear! smiles brought through all of you are just so important in my life. time and time again, i pray a special prayer for yoou all! just thanking God for each one of you in my life :)

2007-02-10T10:54:00.000+08:00

Successful people master their moods.
They live by their commitments, not their emotions.
People who do the right thing, even when they don't feel like it, accomplish most of what gets done in the world! "
A person without self-control is as defenseless as a city with broken down walls" (Proverbs 25:28).

Successful people watch their words. They put their minds in gear before opening their mouths. "He who guards his lips guards his life" (Proverbs 13:3).

Successful people restrain their reactions. How much can you withstand before you lose your "cool," before your emotions take control? "If you are sensible you will control your temper. When someone wrongs you, it is a great virtue to ignore it" (Proverbs 19:11).

Successful people stick to their schedules. If you don't determine how you will spend your time, you can be sure that others will decide for you! "Live life with a due sense of responsibility...make the best use of your time" (Ephesians 5:15-16).

Successful people manage their money. They learn to live on less than what they make and they invest the difference. The value of a budget is that it tells your money where you want it to go, rather than wondering where it went! "The wise man saves for the future, but the foolish man spends whatever he gets" (Proverbs 21:20).

Successful people maintain their health. By taking care of themselves physically, they can accomplish more and enjoy their achievements. "Each of you should control his own body, keeping it pure and treating it with respect" (1 Thessalonians 4:4).

Where do YOU need to develop more self-control? The disciplines you establish today will determine your level of success tomorrow. But it takes more than just willpower for lasting self-control. It takes a power greater than yourself. Good intentions, by themselves, often are not enough. Think about this promise from the Bible: "God does not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, love and self-control" (2 Timothy 1:7). He can give us the strength and resolve to do the things we cannot do in our own power.

hahahas. i didnt come up with this. got it from some email mummy sent :) ingredients for success

2007-02-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

with Christ in the vessel we can :) at the *storm*
smile at the *storm*
smile at the *storm*
with Christ in the vessel we can :) at the *storm*
as we go sailing home!

5 days of non-stop study with rahrah! :DD
u've been the most wonderful blessing! :) : ) :) :) :)

2007-02-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

the big game arrived :)

daryl and i during serivce. we couldn't resist pom poms

soccer dogs the uncle teammummies, aunties, sisters all came to support! (:

real pom pom girls to cheer us on! he kept stealing our ball

father vs son (ps khoo and daniel)

action!

pastor cornelio played!

and daddy came in

and man, he marked me well

and bang, drew banged his head against uncle ramous

st john's ambulance!

team

final score 4-2. youths won!

2007-01-30T07:26:00.000+08:00

Keep Falling In LoveKey: A
Verse 1:A C#m7
I am found in Your embrace
A C#m7 D
Covered by Your love
A C#m7
You're my deepest dreams I know
D E
Your long so strong Spirit come

Verse 2:
Lift me up to heaven's door
You restore my soul
I can't live without Your touch
I need You so much I need You more

PreChorus:
F#m7 Bm7
You're my rock and my Redeemer
F#m7 G Esus
The rock on which I stand
E
Yeh, Yeh

Chorus: A C#m7 D
I keep falling in love with You Lord
A C#m7
Every beat of my heart
D Esus E
Breath that I take
F#m7 G
Through the seasons that change
F#m7 D Bm7 Esus
Your love remains my hiding place and my home
E A C#m7 A C#m7 D (2nd time: E/G#)
Falling in love (repeat)
Bm7 E A E/G#
Falling in love with You
Bm7 E A
Falling in love with You

thumbling so clumsily, they came rolling down.
faster and faster.
left, then right, then left again.
each member unique, taking a thousand different thoughts together
down they go.
nearing the end, dancing at the edge,
before falling to whoknowswhere.

2007-01-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

Beautiful (Lifehouse)

Finally here, won't stay too late.

I want to feel you, I need to hear you.

You are the light that's leading me to the place where I find peace, again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.

You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.

You are the light, to my soul.

You are my purpose, you're everything.

And how can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me 'How could it be any better than this?'

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.

You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall

You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.

Would you take me in?

Take me deeper now.

'Cause you're all I want

You're all I need

You're everything, everything.

Would you tell me 'How could it be, any better than this?'

dear God, she's beautiful (:

2007-01-21T19:27:00.000+08:00

i remembered, when i was young, daddy and mummy stopped me from watching Mighty Morphin Power Rangers. i sneaked and watch them when they weren't around, and when they were around, i had to change channel when the violent scenes came. well, they didnt want me to grow up becoming a violent kid. but i cried at toy stores, when i saw boys like my age walking away with mega zords and power ranger suits, and daddy just walked away leaving me red-eyed and embarassed.

almost more than 10 years from then, i'm still here learning to walk right the path in life. Daddy takes the remote control and switches the channel everytime an "i-should-not-be-looking-at-this-scene" appears. The big issue many of us face has got to do with purity and holiness. it's such a sensitive subject that many of us don't approach the issue at all and fall into it's trap when temptations come. i'm reminded during worship today that sex is a gift from God and should only be reserved in marriage ( it's weird how God speaks to me, the worship service had nothing to do with purity at all). Heb13:4. i have this note on my wall which talks abt 24 Reasons to Wait Until Marriage to Have Sex, but it never appeared so strong to me till this point in stage of my life. It's not that i'm having problem struggling with this issue right now, please dun get me wrong, but i do feel God speaking in my heart and the hearts of others ;) that we need to live our lives right before Him.

1 Thessalonians 4:
3It is God's will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; 4that each of you should learn to control his own body in a way that is holy and honorable, 5not in passionate lust like the heathen, who do not know God; 6and that in this matter no one should wrong his brother or take advantage of him. The Lord will punish men for all such sins, as we have already told you and warned you. 7For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life. 8Therefore, he who rejects this instruction does not reject man but God, who gives you his Holy Spirit.

well, i'm not embarrassed to want to lead a pleasing life to God. help me O God (: thanku once again for sending sarah into my life.

2007-01-18T16:37:00.000+08:00

running nose, red-watery and semi-opened eyes. breathless whispers. sounds pretty much like the description of a run away drug addict eh? that's me. lack of sleep :(

2007-01-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face
George Michael

the first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
and the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave
to the dark and endless skies, my love
to the dark and empty skies

the first time ever I kissed your mouth
I felt the earth move in my hands
like the trembling heart of a captive bird
that was there at my command, my love
that was there at my command

the first time ever I lay with you
and felt your heart so close to mine
and I knew our joy would fill the world
and would last till the end of time, my love
it would last till the end of time
the first time ever I saw your faceyour face, your face

eeeeeeyeer. that doesnt describe me k. i just thought it was quite fun surfing around to ppl's shared folders on itunes and happen to come across this song. maan. guess wad i came across. lol. i thought the words were quite sweet, the first few lines. but then came *ahem. oh man. help.

2007-01-16T11:36:00.000+08:00

joel declared the start of his study week today.

"All i have seen teaches me ti trust the Creator for all i have not seen"

Thank You God for Sarah :))))))

2007-01-15T14:34:00.000+08:00

oh no. this sem is just too short for me to post anything meaningful up at all :(
today's lessons were horrible, felt so demoralised. come on, positive thinking joel.

joel, please grow up quickly. i wanna gooo finish my NS too! i wonder if i'll actually fracture my leg or break a bone within this 2 years before i enter, then i'd get to slack in there too! but no, i mean seriously. please grow up and mature, joel.

2007-01-15T14:16:00.000+08:00

I was sure by now,
God You would have reached down and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen and it's still raining as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God
who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again my strength is almost gone
how can I carry on if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God
who gives and takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

dear God, teach me to be content. to find my identity in Christ :) and i'll praise you in this storm

2007-01-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

Lifehouse Breathing

I'm finding my way back to sanity, again

Though I don't really know what

I am gonna do when I get there

Take a breath and hold on tight

Spin around one more time

And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace
I am hanging on every word you say

And even if you don't want to speak tonight

That's alright, alright with me

'Cause I want nothing more than to sit

Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing

Is where I want to be
I am looking past the shadows

Of my mind into the truth and I'm trying to identify

The voices in my head God, which one's you?

Let me feel one more time

What it feels like to feel

And break these calluses off me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say

And even if you don't want to speak tonight

That's alright, alright with me

'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I don't want a thing from you

Bet you're tired of me waiting

For the scraps to fall

Off your table to the ground

I just want o be here now

the date's set. 4 FEB. finally, we're set for a match again :))

with marcus and chris, heh. after scoring an own goal.

2007-01-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

None But Jesus

In the quiet
In the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos
in confusion
I know You’re sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord
Forever more

Be thou my vision, be my strength when i have none, be my everything Lord Jesus.
Struggling with the thought that there's only 5 weeks left towards exams is a torture itself for me. Dear God, give me grace to do Your will.

"No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As i was with Moses, so i will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. " Joshua 1:5

2007-01-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

cannot lah. cannot leh. outwardly u might see that i'm handling all this projects and commitments well, inside me, i know my health is health detoriating. Lacking the exercises the JC ppl have + Macdonalds after LM every thursday + my favourite katong laksa and carrot cake and hokkien mee @ bukit timah market, i know i'm seriously dying earlier if i continue this lifestyle.

i really do feel that God doesn't create us to be superman and woman. yes, i can be sure he has increased my capacity to serve Him, i cannot handle so many commitments at once as well. Let me just say that i want to spend this year building my relationship deeper with the Lord and with people around me, not serving at every particular area i can. i'm not a major risk taker.

yesterday pastor prayed over a group of us young men and told us this very significant word " balance". funny thing is that, he mentioned latter that it's not balancing between your work and play, but "BOOKS and JESUS". goodness, of all words, he choose books. haha. looking around, its quite true. most of the guys in church are geeks. God-loving geeks :)

dao. @ watchnight 2006!

the GenHope soccer team.

beauty and the geek ;)

2007-01-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

staring 2007 has been wonderful (: God's been speaking and reminding me of His awesome works. looking back at 2006, its been the year i've learnt to trust in Him the most, and learning how to make the right decisions and choices in life. i think i grumble and complain too much. i think many a times we do not see what's ahead of us and wallow in the problem. reading the Psalms, i learnt that even King David had his share of ups and downs in life. hah. all the more i am vulnerable to sin. i guess what's the most important which i want to keep in mind is David's never-sick-or-tired heart after God (:

To Live Is Christ

I make a vow my life will always honour Christ

Whether I live or die I belong to Him He bore my sin

I owe this life to my saving King

Hallelujah I am not my own You are in control

Hallelujah

For me to live is Christ

and to die is gain

no matter what price pay

I choose to give this life away

Only by the cross I am saved

****************************************

The Wonderful Cross

When I survey the wondrous cross

On which the Prince of Glory died

My richest gain I count but loss

And pour contempt on all my pride

See from His head, His hands, His feet

Sorrow and love flow mingled down

Did ever such love and sorrow meet

Or thorns compose so rich a crown?

O the wonderful cross

Bids me come and die

And find that I may truly live

O the wonderful cross
O the wonderful cross
All who gather here

By grace draw near and bless Your name

Were the whole realm of nature mine

That were an offering far too small

Love so amazing, so divine

Demands my soul, my life, my all

And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!" Romans 10:15

it's in the wonder and awe of your works, my soul sings (:

2007-01-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

dear God, do i have to go? :(( i feel so reluctant, i don't want to be a burden instead leh.

blessed new year! waiting for photos to be sent before i can post them! :D

2006-12-31T18:48:00.000+08:00

goodbye 2006 (:

just some of my most precious moments in pictures.

cousins! at our grandmother's birthday.

banner of love and hope!

and there was youth camp!

nathan, bren and i at fdd

our white wrist thingys, on road tgt to purity.

and of cuz, mag will always be around disturbing..

have never stopped smiling since.

my 1D4.

the most wonderful women in my life, of cause (:

and she's the sweetest! picnic at botanics.

annnnnnd so much more, but i've gotta rush for watchnight service. yay! thank God for all of you who've made my life so wonderful (: i want to be forever grateful to Him alone!

2006-12-30T23:06:00.000+08:00

Song: At the Cross
By: Hillsong, Mighty to Save

Oh Lord You’ve searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There’s no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done

And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

dear God, when the going gets tough, i've only got You and dearest Sarah to thank. help me breakthrough.

2006-12-23T08:36:00.000+08:00

sarah and i at her house, having fun preparing her christmas tree!
yay! x'mas is here!wishing everyone out there a blessed x'mas and a joyous 2007 ahead!

dear God, some things in life we dun understand, help me search for the strength and rest i need in You. Lord prepare me, to be a sancturay. Pure and holy. Tried and true, with thanksgiving, i'll be a living, sanctuary, for You.

1 day to x'mas service in church
2 days to christmas
3 days to Meta
4 days to mission night worship (my slot!)
5/6? days to projextX
7 days to planning meeting for 2007
11 days to school

CATS project is incomplete, everybody cant settle on a day to meet, our 6 thinking hats has been rejected by our new teacher. I'm worried we wun score well with the new teacher.
COMPRO mini game is super tough, we found the code to the project we want to do, still waiting for mark to come up with a simpler version. the one we have has got algorithms and dunno what kinda crapy AI that cannot be defeated.
ECPRO project has only myself and mark submitting our share of the project. it's due in the FIRST WEEK of school, mind you.
i'm losing my voice after meta worship practice :( you are good is just too high. anw, i'm just giving thanks to God for good musicians and backup singers who are willing to take the challenge along with me.

dear God, i just need to scream

2006-12-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

dead. so dead, this blog really is. pardon me, havent been writing essays for nearly a year now! i don't know what am i writing sometimes, i'm losing my touch of expressing myself :(

trip to ubin with the shen family! missed that place. lots of memories actually. remembered the time when joel ( i cant remmeber his surname) got lost at night during one of our BB camps. think it was for Campers2 badge if i'm not wrong. all the stupid moments, push ups with dirt on our faces, OBS and swimming in the quarry. i'd never relive them again :(

Christmas! 2 weeks of pathetic holidays. can't help it. everyday's a holiday in the poly actually. only in NP :) hear stories from my church mates at NYP that they get marks deducted for playing computer games in class. goodness, my AD would have flown away long time ago.

dear God, i want a cleared nose for christmas.

my precious!

2006-12-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

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only you know :)

poor blog, always using u as my screaming ground. aarrrgh. i feel like tearing my shirt like rain does. not in that cool way of course.

2006-11-28T10:42:00.000+08:00

Say to those who are fearful hearted, "do not be afraid,
the Lord your God is strong, with His mighty arm,
when you call on His name."
He will come and save

He will come and save you,
He will come and save you
Say to the weary one, "your God will surely come"
He will come and save you

He will come and save you,
He will come and save you
Lift you, He will come and up your eyes to Him,
you will arise again,
He will come and save you

Say to those who are broken hearted, "do not lose your faith,"
the Lord your God is strong, with His loving arms,
when you call on His name."
He will come and save

He is our refuge in the day of trouble,
He is our shelter in the time of storm,
He is our tower in the day of sorrow,
our fortress in the time of war

dear God. i'm back at the place i was meant to be all along :) just kneeling at your feet, i worship You.

2006-11-20T14:33:00.000+08:00

I've waited all my life to be here face to face.
I never knew that I could feel this kind of grace.
The way You show me that Your blood has washed me clean,
Could never be erased; it lives inside of me.

Take me to that secret place,
Where I can only see Your Face,
And nothing else will ever feel this way.
You take away my guilty stains,
The things I've done that I can't change,
It's only by the Power of Your name.

I stand here in this place,
See the Glory on Your Face,
Taken by the wonder of Your name.
I'm desperate for Your touch,
Never needed it so much,
Cause all I want is You.
When all the things around me have fallen to the ground
I'm always thankful for the love in You I've found.

it sometimes seem as if everywhere i go, everything i do, will never be good enough. dear God, thats enough. thank you :) i'm gonna give u all i have and serve You with a cheerful heart. nothing will stop me from loving you, i'm holding onto You.

2006-11-17T20:15:00.000+08:00

Draw me close to you
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear you say that I'm your friend

You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause nothing else could take your place
To feel the warmth of your embrace
Help me find the way,
bring me back to you

You're all I want
You're all I’ve ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know you are near

Lord you have my heart
And i will search for yours
Jesus take my life and lead me on
Lord You have my heart
And i will search for yours
Let me be to you a sacrifice

And i will praise you Lord
And i will sing of love come down
And as you show your face
We'll see your glory here

dear God, i really don't know what to do now. i can't move, i don't feel like breathing. it's like everytime i take a step forward, i've to take three steps back. God, if this is not what you want me to do, please tell me how. dear God it hurts, i dunno if you realise. i'm like, "what else can i do?" learning to be obedient, i tried so hard, with all my strength i believed i gave my best. perseverence- easy to say, hard to practice. You know, u get those days when the devil wacks you hard, you know u're growing up :)

okok, to happier stuff!
sarah's 17 birthday!

the magic swing which bring joy!

cant afford the guitar? at least get the shirt lah. PRS. ahhhhh. droools.

she's sweeter than the cake,

2006-11-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

SANCTUARY

WHEN MY WORLD WAS IN DARKNESS
YOU SPOKE YOUR WORD
NIGHT TURNED INTO DAY
YOUR BEAUTY FILLED THIS PLACE

WHEN MY WORLD STOOD IN SILENCE
YOU FILLED MY HEART
WITH SONGS THAT NEVER END
FOREVER I WILL PRAISE

TO THINK THAT THE UNIVERSE
COULD NOT WITH
HOLD YOUR GLORY
YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE IN ME
I'M SO AMAZED

(AND) I WORSHIP YOU LORD
MY LIFE IN YOU RESTORED
HERE IS MY HEART
MAKE IT YOUR SANCTUARY
FOR NOBODY ELSE
BUT JESUS ONLY (YOU)

YOU ARE FAITHFUL AND TRUE
GLORIOUS LORD
ALL MY LIFE
IT IS YOU I ADORE
YOU'VE TOUCHED MY SOUL
COMPLETED MY WORLD I SURRENDER TO YOU

my heart's aching, Lord. when no one see those tears, i know you do. please tell me why. what on earth are we all doing?

2006-11-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

took him on a car ride on my lap, then we flew an aeroplane, crashed into an ocean and i made a roti prata out of him. my new friend in church> Gerald! kids, they're just super funny. when i introduced myself to him, he told me, 'last time my name was called joel also leh, now my name is gerald' :) he was the lil angel today who brought me joy while waiting for my sister. ahhhhhhhh.

wonderful magnificent savior (: i thank thee. my hands lifted to you, like a child begging to be picked up by his daddy, here i am O Lord. Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me. I give my life to the potter's hands.

101106
love you Lord, love you rah <3

2006-11-08T20:34:00.000+08:00

Complete
(Parachute Band)
Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My open heart, I offer up my life
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on LordA
nd by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My open heart, I offer up my life
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You
I look to You, LordYour love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You

i think God's amazing hands is seen everywhere and especially so strong at this period of time in life. i thank Him for guiding me and indeed blessing me. at this point of time in life, many people might have thought they might have made the wrong decision to go the jc or the poly, don't feel peace everyday of their life, regretting whether or not they made the right decision. I can only thank God for leading me at every point in my life, through the ups and the downs, never letting my foot slip onto unfamilar grounds or to the enemy's hands. i know i owe every single bit of my life to Him.

This song struck hard on me last Sunday while at church. i know i'm a person who worries alot, too much actually, for no good reasons. God's been assuring me that His love displels all my fears, and it is indeed true. Come to think about it, as the pressure becomes greater in school, i've got this excited feeling of hearing more of His voice, knowing He's here with me, the feeling of His presence in my everday life gives me a peace and comfort i know i can never find anywhere else. i know the fears and pressure will always be there, its the step of faith where you put your trust in God that makes the big difference. i know its time we all grow up in our spiritual faith and learn to walk and stand tall with God by our side :)

i blew up my first fuse today! woohoots! thank God it wasnt the one from the multimeter or a fuse from a graded circuit. punny as it is, i think its the first of thousands to come, but please, hopefully it never happens during the exam or test.

I look to You, Lord

2006-11-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

we're all so busy, we're busy ppl, i wish i had time to come up with a crappy song just for busy people :)

my blog's getting rather dead, there's really no time to update.
i'll get it updated as soon as i can k?

smile there u all! :D

2006-10-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

irreplaceable means:
too special, unusual or valuable to replace with something or someone else;

only you;

2006-10-29T18:01:00.000+08:00

Thank You for Loving Me
What love the Father has lavished on us
That we should be called His sons and daughters
Precious in His sight
Greater love this world had never seen
When He hung on that tree
O why would He do such a thing
For dirty sinners like you and me?

God thank You for loving me
on the cross You made history
Lord You died for me
Forever my praise will go to Thee
O God thank You for choosing me
To be Your child and bear Your name
O Jesus I will never cease to sing Your praise

Your love is patient and humble and kind
It's greater than all my sin
It always protects and trusts and hopes
And will have no end
It's Your love that lifted me up from the depths
Set my feet on a solid rock
With a firm place to stand
Lord I always will trust in Your loving hand

How wide how long
How high how deep
How endless is Your love for me
How wide how long
How high how deep
How endless is Your love for me

Thank You for Loving Me

please go check this song out if u can and send me a copy of it
I wannnnnnnt my TIIIIIIIMMMMMEEEE BAACCCCCK. just so sick of doing endless work.

2006-10-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord, take a hold of my hand.
Lead me and guide me, teach me how to love
I want to grow up and be matured in You

:)

i've got happy colourful gummy!

2006-10-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

I'm trading my sorrow
I'm trading my shame
I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

I'm trading my sickness
I'm trading my pain
I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord
Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord
Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen

I'm pressed but not crushed
persecuted not abandoned
Struck down but not destroyed
I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure
And his joy's gonna be my strength

Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning

thankyou dear God

2006-10-22T18:45:00.000+08:00

Keep Falling In Loveby Scott Haslem

I am found in Your embrace
Covered by Your love
You're my deepest dreams I know
Your long so strong Spirit come

Lift me up to heaven's door
You restore my soul
I can't live without Your touch
I need You so much I need You more

You're my rock and my Redeemer
The rock on which I stand
Yeh, Yeh

I keep falling in love with You Lord
Every beat of my heart
Breath that I take
Through the seasons that change
Your love remains my hiding place and my home
Falling in love

Falling in love with You
Falling in love with You

**please send me an mp3 of this song if u have?
dear God,be my rock when i'm weak.
i have no where else to hide.
as i'm crying out from deep inside.
Jesus take control of this life,
when i've no strength to fight.

i need all your phone contacts again, my phone went ?###*&^%$^??^%$ last friday :(

2006-10-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

YAY. thank God for great music, great headphones, thanks to them, i can bang my head again to MEEGAA bass music. booming at my ears, no one knows wad i'm listening to :) totally cut myself out from the world, sometimes i need these moments, just creating my own world through sounds and squeaks, i miss recording on my guitar. rocking with great headphones isnt too bad either, apple's headphone isnt too fantastic i just found out, not as good as my laupok old sony ear piece! they cost me abt 30bucks, but still using them ever since i had my CD player! (: whoots! thats nearly 5 years ago. man, sony rocks.

thank God for great lecturers n teachers :) mdm tan's really cute. can imagine loving her EM3A lessons. Mdm Ng's quite funny as well. they all looked quite fierce at first! but are really really God's blessing in my life :) hahahas. Gen12ii! so funny, constance reminded me.

yay. glad i could b of encouragement as well :) its funny how God speaks to me these days, while having dinner alone, when i'm bathing, when i'm waiting for my bus to school. u know, u just feel better when she's smiling again n u know everything's alrights :)
i'm begining to understand what He meant by ONE, n when

".. because they have a good return for their work;
if one falls down,
his friend can help him up..
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.. "

my heart is filled with praise,
i am forever grateful :)

2006-10-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

The Love of God- mercy me
The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell
It goes beyond the highest star
And reaches to the lowest hell
The guilty pair, bowed down with care
God gave His Son to win
His erring child He reconciled
And pardoned from his sin

Could we with ink the ocean fil
And were the skies of parchment made
Were every stalk on earth a quill
And every man a scribe by trade

To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry
Nor could the scroll contain the whol
Though stretched from sky to sky

Hallelujah [3x]

O love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints' and angels' song

one more post before i should be sleeping (:

2006-10-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

its fustration. seriously, when u try so hard and u never know how to complete it. i'm talking about engineering mathematics 3A lah. its elementary integration! how? forget liao. can go retake EG2 again. whoots

school's started. i dun feel like i'm in a everyday-wakeup-at-8am mood yet :( :( :( i want back my happy holidays.

2006-10-15T15:38:00.000+08:00

oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr!oh my, school starts tmr!oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr!oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr!oh my, school starts tmr!oh my, school starts tmr!oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr! oh my, school starts tmr!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i really dun wan school to start so soon. dunno wad's it like to face computer screens everyday. i dunno lah God, must b something more exciting in store for me in school ehh? i still do miss jamming. i'm seriously feeling super whiny today. i just wanna lay burried under the sand somewhere along changi beach.

anw, passiTon camp com photos

had a nice time chatting with ron and daniel liu on friday, i guess God's hitting me hard now. seems like i'm an unsure kind of person along these situations, God, if its Your will, i'm sure things come naturally from You, i just surrender everything. i have no idea how am i gonna juggle so many stuff, but i guess that's when You come in eh? if i knew how i'm going to handle so many commitments in sch and church, i wouldnt be using Your strength eh? then again, i'm only human, an average 17-year-old boy with big dreams for You. just use me in Your time. Grateful to God for my encourager and support, as we spent the rest of the beautiful day at changi.

during worship today, afew things hit my mind. the passage on John 21:15 (Jesus Reinstates Peter)

15When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?"

"Yes, Lord," he said, "you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."

16Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me?"
He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep."

17The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?"
He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."

18Jesus said, "Feed my sheep. I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go."

19Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, "Follow me!"

it's not enough to say I love you Lord? time to grow up Joel

2006-10-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

I'll praise You in the storm

was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

dear God, i pray for my frens who are hurting. i know how they feel.

2006-10-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

dear God, help me not to lose sight of you.
i need your love n grace, strengthen me as i walk close to you
be here when i fall, never leave me alone
i want to dwell in your house forever, sing praises to Your name
make my life a living temple for your name, as i submit next sem into your hands
Your word be a lamp unto my feet, n dim the light of the world

"but let him who boasts boast about this: that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight," declares the LORD."Jeremiah 9:23-25

2006-10-10T20:51:00.000+08:00

i thought this picture was really funny ;P

mermaid escaping!

lunchie box by rahrah!

sweet smiles!

dinner!

our happy day spent at BG! (: (: (: thankGod for the wonderful time spent, and the beautiful weather! n not forgetting the pretty swans and ugly ducks. hahahas. and of course, the wonderful company! :) whoots!

com's reformatted! but cant seem to view tagboxes, dunno whyy. books bought, notes in files. all set for school. leaving only my ever messy table.

2006-10-08T18:50:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
school's starting in one week's time! i cant even find my calculator now. my table's in a big big mess again :( no space for my xtlive

should i get my com reformatted? weird things keep happening lah. its getting really slow when i start it up, C and D drives keep decreasing for no reason. and and and! the funny thing was that C drive increase again today! TY! wad on earth is going on?

2006-10-08T17:59:00.000+08:00

25 Minutes

After some time
I've finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
And I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's crying while she's saying this

Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late
Against the wind I'm going home again
Wishing be back to the time when we were more than
friends

Still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's cried while she's saying this

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head
Still I can hear the words she said
I can still hear what she said

awwww. another poor dude. reminds me that i should never be late again for dates with sarah again.

recently, God's been calling me back to love Him and spend time with Him. we all know, we're not in a religion, but in a relationship with our heavenly Father. its quite true that our God is a jealous God. i guess i take it so lightly sometimes and i fail to understand how much God wants us to say 'i love you' to Him. not by our actions or words, but with our hearts. thats something i've been thinking about. Jesus loves me, and He wants me to love him too. we cant just accept his love and be selfish about it. i'm beginning to learn so much about this, in a personal way.

went door to door giving out flyers for our upcoming hokkien and chinese evangelistic meeting. it was really a nice experience! though i could hardly speak anything to them. most didnt bother to answer doorbells, some just smiled as we tried explaining why we came, i wonder if they really understood wad we were telling them. i dunno abt you, but i feel so much joy in sowing seeds into ppl's life. i do feel God's lifted away the fears and timidity in my heart but i'm sure there's so much more He can change in me :) just letting Him have His way.

miss ya all!

2006-10-06T13:22:00.000+08:00

oh dear. its over :( no more meetinngs, no more coffee bean-bk-subway-sleeping sessions at crusade room. i miss everyone of you! esp u camp com!

glory be to God for helping make this camp a real big success. thank God for the fine weather, good food (they were the best packed meals i ever got to eat), boiled water, worship sessions, staff sermons and help, john piper's super cheem messages, new ppl in the mist of us, wonderful company, encouraging group members n frens, ant-filled kitchen, yakun kaya + nutella, wonderful seniors for their advice n help n encouragements, organised taupok sessions, our hardworking photographer, the seeds sown n the harvest reaped, silly games, lame jokes, beautiful sand and sea, ak's guitar.

waiting for shaowei's pictures to b uploaded!

2006-10-01T17:55:00.000+08:00

happy children's day all! :)

aw man. was just looking at all the little kiddies today. i wonder if they even know why they were up on stage and being prayed for. they were just all so cute. i couldnt help it but look at each one of them while auntie judith was leading in praying for them. there was luke, he flipped his shirt up and showed his tummy, then there was the very sweet grace, looking really bluur, then while uncle lucas spread out his hand to bless the kids ( praying for them), jesse must have thought it was a high five to him and high five back uncle lucas. i wondered wad my kids would b like in the future, are they gonna be nerds, or lil rascals? would they look like me? will they like chicky meals or happy meals? oh man. i miss my children's day. where's my sweets and chocos? :(

passiTon tmr. wun b around for the next few days!

2006-09-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

When A Man Loves A Woman

When a man loves a woman
Can't keep his mind on nothin'else
He'd trade the world
For a good time he's found

If she is bad, he can't see it
She can do no wrong
Turn his back on his best friend
If he puts her down

When a man loves a woman
Spend his very last dime
Trying to hold on to what he needs
He'd given up all his comfort
And sleep out in the rain
If she said that's the way
It ought to be

When a man loves a woman
I give you everything I've got (yeah)
Trying to hold on to your precious love
Baby, baby please don't treat me bad

When a man loves a woman
Deep down in his soul
She can bring him such misery
If she is playing him for a fool
He's the last one to know
Loving eyes can never see
Yes when a man loves a woman
I know exactly how he feels
'Cause, baby, baby, baby
I am a man
When a man loves a woman

awww maan. wad a classic song. look at the words man. aww. wad a poor guy, here's the song what everyone's been listening and dunno wad the man's saying. i miss the old rock and roll sessions, just learning the blues, funking it the way we like.

grah. someone please tell me how to get rid of a trojan.

2006-09-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

went over to bukit timah market for lunch today, with zu! had pasta and popiah! the sarah asked if i could use the chopsticks properly. was soo funny lah. we ended up making a big mess out of the popiah. it was really funny, like before rah could put the piece into her mouth, the whole piece disintegrated into pieces- eeew. there, u can tell how bad shape it was from the last picture. but it was fun lah :) enjoyed myself alot today! then went over down to have meeting with camp com :) acting again! had a great time just praying for the whole camp, giving God His place in the camp, knowing that we can only work with His help.

medicine's really making me very drowsy these days, just wanna do nothing but sleep. Gooood. i need strength.

thanku for your encouragements n love :)

2006-09-26T21:31:00.001+08:00

Father in Heaven, please be near all my dear brothers and sisters in Christ who are feeling drained out at this period of time. all the planning for camps and attending so many camps have really tire us all out. for joyce, sinyi and rahrah :) please heal all the sick ppl too!

Lord, hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breath life into these dry and thirsty souls
Lord, hear our prayer
Forgive our sin
And as we call on Your name
Would You make this a place
For Your glory to dwell

Open the blind eyes
Unlock the deaf ears
Come to Your people
As we draw near
Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are Your people
Crying out in desperation

2006-09-26T20:08:00.000+08:00

been too lazy and tired to blog, let the pictures speak for themselves :)

sarah playing carom, too bad u missed the funny sight of her.

DG meal! kuay chap with my DGL joshua! i only take the taupok and eggs while he finishes all the intestines.

the real taupok, man. twice already lah. including today. our way of showing love (:

isn's she lovely?

2006-09-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

1. Love God, having him first in my life
"love the Lord with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. " Mark 12:30

2. to be obedient
"Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him. ' John 14:21

3. Love
"Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins." 1 Peter 4:8

here're just some of the important lessons i learn, and am still learning.

had a wonderful day with zu. had totally no idea wad the banquet was, just enjoyed all the fighting and killing scenes (heh, i'm a normal boy). i am still coughing :( please please please get me recovered, and keep me healthy at least for passiTon and my last week of hols.

yay. it feels good to be forgiven :) had a long chat with daddy, gave him a big hug. we've finally understood each other over this issue. thank God i have an understanding daddy. i think i need to put myself in his shoes sometimes and understand why he does certain things HIS way. not that i agree to all of them, but i tried to b obedient k. i really did. and when things got worse, the disappointment was just even greater. but when you reach the point you just cant do anything, u know that prayer's the only way God can move. its really great knowing that God doesn't disappoints or fails- though i've learnt many times that men does.

my hope is built in nothing but Christ my rock.

Cause You are God
And nothing I do can understand
The greatness you have in Your plans
I'm in wonder
I'm so in love with You

Take my hand
And please don't le me slip
I choose to follow you
All my days
I cannot live without You
without You

-joel's